Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Today is.....


There's no better way to describe TODAY...but as a beginning of a new chapter called My Life. Today, my daily horoscope said "Do not let your TODAY be stolen by the unchangeable past or the indefinite future! Today is a new day!" Coincidence or not, this couldn't have come in a better time as yesterday I closed all the doors to the past and the life I once knew.

Anyone who has ever gone through some sort of heartbreak knows what awful pain it can cause, both physically and mentally. It can be devastating, shattering, and overwhelming. When you're in the midst of the emotional pain that comes after a breakup, it feels as if it will never end. It is so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but we all know the darkness ends and the sun shines brightly.

Today I know I will never get the answers that I needed, but I did learn one thing - the biggest disappointments in our lives are often the result of misplaced expectations; expectations, hopes and dreams we have of others. I always wanted more out of life than the person with whom I shared my life with, not recognizing their limitations and our differences. At the end that person ended up hurting me the most.  Today when I look back on our life together it was a misplaced expectation of my dreams. But past is now the past and it can't hurt me anymore.

This past year broke me down, left me with plenty of shitty, stressful and depressing situations but it also gave me an opportunity to build myself back up even stronger than I was before.  I suddenly remembered the type of woman that I used to be - fearless, strong..the one that takes an opportunity and runs with it.

So Today, I raise a glass and say "To the new beginning...To the new chapter of my life!"

4 comments:

Kathryn K said...

Thank you for your heartfelt post, I am glad you are doing better. I am still where you were at and I know I will get through this -just wish it would happen soon

Jelena, The Faux Foodie Girl said...

Thank you for your comment Kathryn...every day is a struggle, but I promise you it gets better. It's a conscious decision to leave the past behind - Surrounding myself with positive people, getting out there, doing things for yourself, it all helped me. Best of luck and I hope you find your happy place again. Cheers to the new us!

Maureen Gribble said...

Getting caught up on my blogs, so just read this. I'll happily raise a glass and toast to your new beginnings. If anyone can rock this fresh start, it's you, and of course you'll look fabulous while you do it!Cheers!

Kat said...

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