Thursday, August 30, 2012

Motherhood and All that other stuff


There are still days that I wake up and realize "wow, I am a mom"..."I have a daughter" and my heart wants to explode of love I feel for my baby girl...How did I get so lucky with an amazing little girl.

It took me awhile to get where I am today, but today I can truly say - I love being a mom and I love having Kiki in my life. No matter what is happening around me, she is always my happy! The first time I looked into her eyes I understood what the words unconditional love truly mean. I have loved before, but the love I felt when I held my daughter for the first time is something I can not explain. Becoming a mother has been amazing, terrifying and profound at the same time.

1. I was never a baby person before and didn't know what to do with them until I had one. And now I am one of those people who gives strangers baby advice and wants to hold their baby.

2. If people still had wallets with photos of their kids in it, I'd be one of them. Lucky me I can tote around 500+ pictures of my little love in my iPhone.

3. I never understood when people would light up talking about their kids, but now I get it. I light up just thinking about her.

4. While my type A personality can sometimes drive me into overdrive, and schedules and routines are important, you also have to be flexible and live your life. I've learned not to be so rigid because sometimes a baby is just a baby and not every day goes as planned.

5. I've learned to say no. I can say no to travel opportunities or social gatherings when I need to. While I still feel like I'm missing out on the fun sometimes, picking and choosing what's most important to me and works best with my family's needs and schedule.

6. Discovering a whole new world through the eyes of my baby love....the sounds that animals make, tasting new foods, touching new textures, learning new words. Suddenly the smallest things are becoming so fascinating. 

7. I have a whole new respect and appreciation for my parents and the sacrifices they have made so I can become a person that I am today. 

8. So long clean living rooms. I am learning how to deal with a messy house. I used to need everything to be in its place immediately, and now it just take a little while longer {or sometimes that pile just sits there for weeks - like those bills, torn recipes from magazines, etc}...but I'm learning to be okay with that.

9. I was afraid how would I do things that I used to do before the baby, or giving up the little things, but I don't see it anymore as giving up, it's completely natural to put her needs first. I find it so easy to go shopping, or to Barnes and Noble, or for a walk to clear my head, or that massage or manicure that I cherish so much...or anything else outside of the house a total breeze, because I am teaching her about my life, my likes, these are the things now I love doing with her. I couldn't imagine going shopping without her - she is my perfect final voice if I should buy something or not.

10. I have become less worried about "what will be" or "what has happened" but cherish the now.

11. and finally, I love more!

I love you from here to eternity my baby love!!!

2 comments:

Melissa Van Vickle said...

Great post! Motherhood definitely changes you! Life is so much better with these beautiful little beings we created. And to think they love us back just as unconditionally is the greatest gift ever!!

Maureen Gribble said...

I love this, I am constantly having to remind myself to go with the flow and not worry so much about schedules and how I *think* an activity should go over with Adam. When I feel myself getting frustrated I have to keep saying..ummm, Maureen, he's 3...ha!